"Something unknown is doing we don't know what"

Well that explains a lot. xo

last monday night

We all dreamed of past loves. I wonder if anyone else did too? xo

The Tower

reminds me to celebrate change, also warns of an upset. I've been drawing mostly major arcana cards in the past few weeks. HMMMMMM.... I wish for the wisdom of the tarot to reveal itself to me, please! xo 

playing the waiting game

While fending off worry and anger with yoga and wandering. Oh how I hate this game! xo

onward!

4 of wands
5 of cups
princess of swords
princess of swords
4 of swords
9 of cups
5 of wands
4 of swords

I am becoming familiar with the 4 of swords and it's reminder to take a break.

So we've finished at our first spot and most of the crew is headed north for another week or so. On my last day, the bright lights and constant chatter finally urged me outside where I should have been the whole time. I forget how sensitive I am, I was becoming borderline unhinged. What I realized at the award celebration last night? We all were.
xo

a list that goes backwards in time

8 of cups
3 of disks
3 of cups
4 of swords
8 of swords
5 of disks
Death
princess of cups
princess of cups
prince of swords
7 of swords
4 of cups
princess of cups
princess of cups
princess of disks
4 of swords


So I went for a full palm reading from Hillary, and she told me to get a tarot deck. It took me 3 tries, 3 bookstore visits and much deliberation, confusion and doubt before the Thoth deck spoke to me. It's becoming clear that this is not a beginner deck, and there is a lot of depth of symbolism and esoteric wisdom that I do not at all understand. In an effort to start simple, I've been drawing a daily card for the past couple of weeks, as well as trying to records my dreams. See any patterns? Mainly cups and swords (emotion and mental processes) does not surprise me. I'm wondering about this princess of cups character too, as she has appeared several times and in a row no less. Something about dreams and water..... that is all. xo

omens of what?

Finished up the last chapter of my synchronicity book last night (on death and dying), dreamed about a friend falling to her death from a balcony and upon waking I drew the death card form my tarot deck.

Transformations? Endings? New beginnings? Time will tell.... xx

9 of cups

(happiness and wish fulfillment)

Last wishes and cups of tea at thump.

xo

9 of swords

(anxiety and fear)

hmm.....

also the 10 of cups jumped out while shuffling.

WHAT DOES IT MEAN!?

this is fun

xo

3 of disks

(Hard work, determination and concentrated effort.)

That sounds about right for this Tuesday of continued packing, moving and cleaning!

Looking forward to some redwoods and solo time.

xo

exhaustion

The message of this card is about all the ways in which we set up safe but unnatural routines for ourselves, and by doing so keep the chaotic and spontaneous away from our doors.  Life isn't a business to be managed, it's a mystery to be lived. It's time to tear up the time-card, break out of the factory, and take a little trip into the uncharted.


ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

xo