Monday, October 31, 2011

a big fear

and secret wish:

Play the game called "Tell me the story of your scars." It's best to do it with a skilled empath who is curious about your fate's riddles and skilled at helping you find redemption in your wounds. 

"How did you get that blotch on your knee?" he or she might begin. The questions and answers continue until you unveil the history of your hurts, both physical and psychic. Treat yourself to this game soon. 

(from my free will horoscope this week)

the web

 Morning fog on the farm.

Monday, October 24, 2011


4 of wands
5 of cups
princess of swords
princess of swords
4 of swords
9 of cups
5 of wands
4 of swords

I am becoming familiar with the 4 of swords and it's reminder to take a break.

So we've finished at our first spot and most of the crew is headed north for another week or so. On my last day, the bright lights and constant chatter finally urged me outside where I should have been the whole time. I forget how sensitive I am, I was becoming borderline unhinged. What I realized at the award celebration last night? We all were.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

a list that goes backwards in time

8 of cups
3 of disks
3 of cups
4 of swords
8 of swords
5 of disks
princess of cups
princess of cups
prince of swords
7 of swords
4 of cups
princess of cups
princess of cups
princess of disks
4 of swords

So I went for a full palm reading from Hillary, and she told me to get a tarot deck. It took me 3 tries, 3 bookstore visits and much deliberation, confusion and doubt before the Thoth deck spoke to me. It's becoming clear that this is not a beginner deck, and there is a lot of depth of symbolism and esoteric wisdom that I do not at all understand. In an effort to start simple, I've been drawing a daily card for the past couple of weeks, as well as trying to records my dreams. See any patterns? Mainly cups and swords (emotion and mental processes) does not surprise me. I'm wondering about this princess of cups character too, as she has appeared several times and in a row no less. Something about dreams and water..... that is all. xo

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

blue dream

This picture rings a bell..... dreamed of my other magical camp home last night. And now I'm full on rolling oak savannah hills, misty mossy treescapes and the chirp buzzing of crickets. xo

Thursday, October 6, 2011

omens of what?

Finished up the last chapter of my synchronicity book last night (on death and dying), dreamed about a friend falling to her death from a balcony and upon waking I drew the death card form my tarot deck.

Transformations? Endings? New beginnings? Time will tell.... xx

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

wild boar liver

and rattlesnake dinners.

Been playing at farm life for the past few days, minus most of the hard work. Thankful for beautiful plants, welcoming fiends and frank discussions. And fruit ninja! xo