Wednesday, February 29, 2012

to do

Like the moon, we too move through phases and by creating a Full Moon Mandala during the waxing phase of the moon (between the new and full moon), we are using it’s power to gather, grow, learn and to reveal our focus for the weeks ahead.

New Moon - New beginnings, fresh starts, optimism, hope and faith,
Waxing Moon
 – Building, accomplishments, creativity, strength, growth and learning, positive transformation
Full Moon
 – Abundance, harvest, wish-fulfillment, manifesting desires, sexuality, achieving all dreams, protection
Waning Moon
 – Letting go, clearing away, cleansing, releasing, shedding old patterns, undoing bindings, opening up problem-knots, making space
Dark Moon
 – Rest, Peace, deep wisdom, divination, contacting the guru within, letting things die away completely  


on the bright side

Made it safely to Seattle, driving one-handed over snowy Mt. hood pass. Consulted an enthusiastically talented Clio (April 24!!). Quick lunch with Rain in Portland. Hot drinks with Sammy, hot springs with Ang and hot damn, sir Amy is in town. Been meditating and aura watching. Green tea has gratefully replaced coffee. My favorite Yerba mate. Plants in my car. And tomorrow? I have a new home for one March month. xo


I am beginning to notice a the following pattern; about once a year around springtime, I injure myself doing something totally mundane and ordinary. Examples? Holding a baby. A relaxed day hike. And most recently? SLEEPING. On what was supposed to be a ski and yoga filled visit to Bend, I awoke one morning with a badly swollen wrist and no good reason. Four days later and I am still popping Advil like candy, indulging in self-pity and wondering, what is the deal? WHAT DOES IT MEAN? And when will it get better? I can't even clip my fingernails without crying. Sheesh. 

Also, for the past 3 nights I have dreamed about cats, specifically sick cats who need my help. Too many sick kitties and I can't help them all. 



soul fodder


May you eat an unfamiliar dessert in a strange land at least once every three years. 

May you wake up to salsa music one summer morning and start dancing while you're still half-asleep. 

May you spray-paint Rilke poems as graffiti on highway overpasses. 

May you mix stripes with plaids, floral patterns with checks, and yellowish-green with brownish-purple. 

May you learn to identify by name 20 flowers, 15 trees, 10 clouds and one extrasolar planet. 

May you put a bumper sticker on your car or bike that says, "My god can kick your god's ass!" 

If you bury your face in your tear-stained pillow and beg God to please send you your soul mate, may you not slur your words in such a way that they sound like "cell mate." 

May you dream of taking a trip to the moon in a gondola powered by firecrackers and wild swans. 

May you actually kiss the earth now and then. 

May you find many good excuses to say, as physicist Niels Bohr once did, "Your theory is crazy, but it's not crazy enough to be true." 

The preceding oracle comes from Rob's book, PRONOIA Is the Antidote for Paranoia: How the Whole World Is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings. 

Thinking I am almost due for foreign desserts in strange lands...

Monday, February 20, 2012


The service was lovely, the relatives overwhelming and Grampy dressed up like a mobster for some much needed laughs. I spent time exploring old treasures in the new house, and looking at photos. 


A dream about one of Grammy's hand painted palekh boxes; I was allowed to choose one and I picked green.

It was filled with broken glass and blood.

Analyze THAT.


Thursday, February 16, 2012


camera notes
art deco
half sleeve


Friday, February 10, 2012

an apartment in my heart

I dreamed you lived there, tiny. Well hello! xo

what is next?

I wonder. Trying to keep my schedule devoid of plans is trying me these days. I didn't realize how tightly I cling to future ventures. So where does that leave me? With what is NOW!! xo

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Saturday, February 4, 2012


I knit a hat, faced a fear and got the hug I had been needing. xo

Thursday, February 2, 2012


There are things about this tree that I did not notice when I took the shot. xo

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

yet another list

of a few bad habits:

soy lattes
celebrity gossip
impulsive purchases
sweet and salty snacking
slacking on self care
sloppiness with finances
bugging my mom's cat
taking things personally
all or nothing mentality
inability to LET GO
need for control
lack of initiative
future tripping
running away
poor posture


being way too freaking hard on myself.