Friday, December 30, 2011

I am

aware of being a seasonal creature. In the winter I am sedate. I sleep long, drink coffee and gain weight. Best of all? I'm learning to savor this.

How do you change?


Thursday, December 29, 2011

my film

survived the airport scanners, BIG SIGH (relief). This glorious tree lives just outside the house of the mom of a friend of Scott. She gave me an owl feather and a hug when we stopped in one time. 

I am busy busy preparing for the next chapter, which will include wild driftwood beaches, a island sheep farm and retreat. xo

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

everything looks cool

I'll probably be over the novelty of the hipstamatic soon... 

Breakfast started off relaxed and with a surprise jab in a tender spot things turned sharp. It had something to do with that gotye video, and the illumination of pain. We emotionally charged into the muck and found a phantom limb, over ten years old and laced with red. It was once mine...

(I didn't know it was still hers)


Tuesday, December 20, 2011

last night

We sat around sipping toddies and talking. We speculated on where we should go and what we should do, and who else we could call. We wondered if any bars served eggnog. I sewed a patch onto my bag and we attempted a sidewalk stencil. We didn't go anywhere. And this is why I adore winter in the northwest. xo

Monday, December 19, 2011


Visited me in dreamland last night, rising ominously from the depths (and I was frightened, thrilled).

Snake brings the medicine of transmutation, transformation and healing.


Saturday, December 17, 2011

animal totems

Armadillo, Bear, Porcupine, Snake, Hawk, Dragonfly, Wild Boar, Whale and Cat. I drew the first seven from Angie's deck of medicine cards. And the last two? They've made themselves known :)    


Drove in and out of the fog all morning to reach Seattle by way of roadside hawks (over twenty!) Last night? Slinky lynx, bright eyed possum and a teeniest gravel mouse, frazzled. 

Nicole says it's important to fully arrive in a new place and I agree. For me, this has evolved to involve tea time, toothbrushing and an essential oil boost at a cozy cafe. 

Grateful for a generous dollar from a stranger, and my old room offered up by a friend.


Friday, December 16, 2011

juniper spoons

by angie. Aren't they gorgeous? 


Aesthetic birds on wires. I watched these perch and flock for several minutes before they disappeared behind ponderosa pines. And? I am officially tired of being sick. xo

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

afternoon light

And my new toy, a rose quartz dowsing pendulum. It reminds me of the star I made for dear Mr. Thomas when I was 12. The shape is called a merkaba, and I don't quite understand it.

So there you have it, yet another pretty tool for my toybox, a direct line from the wisdom of my body to the outside world that quite bypasses the hamster wheel.


vessel of the fish

"Visualize two circles side by side, not touching. This represents Duality, or Separation. But now visualize the union of the two circles such that the Centre of each is on the circumference of the Other. This is the Father-Mother Principle in Divine Union. Observe the oval geometry in the middle, known as the Vesica Pisces which resembles an almond shape or the shape of the human eye.

Here is a puzzle. How would you describe the 3-Dimensional view of this Vesica or Almond Shape? Here is a clue, and its something we've been kicking around for quite a few decades. The answer is The Rugby ball

The Rugby Ball is indeed one of the most powerfully symbols in all of this Multi-Dimensional Language of Light.
This explains the bizarre global fascination for a game with billions of spectators who go into trance cheering the wild and unpredictable path of a bloated bladder ball, where everyone seeks bliss by participating in a cult that justifies the act of getting drunk, screaming praises and obscenities, perhaps no different than jungle behaviour thousands of years ago. I suspect that this is a healthy behaviour to tune out of our normal grind in society and work and release emotional pressures by venting at a ball game. This is Sacred Geometry at its best. Really it's a statement that sacred geometry exists invisibly in the mass consciousness. "  (from this site)

Geometry has taken on a new significance since my trip in the bermuda triangle. I am so damn curious about the true nature of things, and I have an itch to see it for myself. xo

quantum physics

teaches us that a particle behaves like a wave, is able to be in two places at once and acts differently when watched. This I can get behind.  xo

Saturday, December 10, 2011

no reason

(that I'm aware of)

The Tower

reminds me to celebrate change, also warns of an upset. I've been drawing mostly major arcana cards in the past few weeks. HMMMMMM.... I wish for the wisdom of the tarot to reveal itself to me, please! xo 

Friday, December 9, 2011

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

arcade game

I feel like I'm in a giant pinball machine, bouncing between the northwest towns, becoming lodged in unexpected nooks (some more comfortable than others) before being jounced around and projected across state to circus music and bright lights. I failed to limit my home-stay to three days, or do daily spiritual cleanses and have become congested. I found reunions, rites of passage and happened upon an early morning branding session, from which I remain faintly singed with envy. Also? Elijah lay beneath a daily swell of winter crows, immersed in their secret mutterings (yes pleasepleaseplease). Until then, hello portlandia, warm arms and rest. xo

Monday, December 5, 2011


One of my photos was picked for a plastic camera show in sf, I think this is the one they want..... yay :) xo

Thursday, December 1, 2011


I feel kind of like I'm racing to put money towards what's worthwhile before I fritter it away on the frivolous.

Here in Seattle, I adore the drear, bluegrass in brick buildings and my friends (heartaches not long under the bridge).