Monday, December 24, 2012

hmm...

I have to give myself some credit for breaking old patterns. Isn't that what growth is all about? 

Also, I like to think that since the solstice I have felt a flood of rawness, a glittery edge and unexpected flow. xo

home stretch


I have said most of my tearful goodbyes, Christmas is tomorrow and I leave for India the following day. I am considering a first stop at the dentist, it has been too long. xo

Sunday, December 23, 2012

practice

flash card
grapefruit seed extract
triple a batteries
socks
clear tape

pants?

(remembering last minute things)

xo

Today

I found my anchor, not a plastic gold façade, but heavy metal, warm and round.

What is an anchor anyways? Something to nestle deep in the comfort mud, to withstand cold depths. A tool for grounding.

Hillary told me this would be important for my trip. She suggested Ganesh, the remover of obstacles. I decided to be more literal about it.

Digging through bins and buckets at the market, through bangles and pins and bits of light, there had to be an anchor there somewhere, maybe a pendant or a charm? My frustration grew like ivy.

I could ask someone for help, if I wasn't so afraid.

Desperately pawing, I need an anchor, I need an anchor....

And then, in the tray, I saw one! Bright gold in front of my eyes, I grabbed it greedily and my elation wavered. It was too light, no substance. And I had found it! And it was not my anchor. I wrestled with myself, and heart took the reins.

What is an anchor anyways?

To be used every day, when in need of a home.

xo


for manifesting!

a home
a project
health

these are the things I want so so much.
xo

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

another


Pinhole shot, from pioneer Henry Pittock's mansion in Portland. I was looking for the Japanese garden and ended up here instead. xo

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

a picture



From my pinhole camera.
 A 15 minute exposure! 
I like the dreaminess. 
xo

Monday, December 17, 2012

rich and warm


details from yet another fairy tale house. xo





this time

Is special, according to some. We are approaching the winter solstice, which can be seen as the beginning of a new year. A Mayan cycle is ending, and from what I have heard; this is a time for letting things go and manifesting future glory! Combined with the consumer Christmas season, what a powerful paradox, right? Everywhere that I look are messages telling me to change this and buy that. 

What I want most of all to leave behind is this urge to consume. From what I put in my body to what I put on my bank card, I have a sneaky feeling that most of it is a big fat waste. What wolf am I feeding anyways?

I would like to create, and make do. I would like for the output to equal the input. That is all, please. :)

xo

Saturday, December 15, 2012

weirdly

Getting a big fat rejection actually feels kinda good, in a sharpish pin prick kind way. Why? Because with each no I receive, I am that much closer to another YES. 

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming.....

xo

Portland



Almost a week of photos and friends. xo

Friday, December 14, 2012

typical cosmic giggle

Looking for a classic "cult" point and shoot last week, I compiled a master wish list, perused every thrift shop I encountered, only to come home and find not one, but TWO in my dads own closet. I am absolutely swimming in cameras. xo

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

last night

I celebrated Rain's semester of brilliance by drinking bloody marys and slapping strangers who quickly became friends. xo

lens less


so purty
xo

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

ideas for India...

Pinhole portraits
Long exposures
Nighttime
Blurred motion
Defensive shooting
Moonlight
In your face
Kiddos
Colors
Birds flocks
Perfect timing
Joyful moments



I now own two more cameras, a 35mm point and shoot and a classy wooden pinhole. Oh BOY! Also, I hope to expand my emotional portfolio. xo

foreshadow


"I have learned that physical suffering is the most endurable."

How are you now?

xo

more and more


I am noticing parallels between me and this beautiful Kitty, my great grandmother. 

xo

I'm the kind of person who...

(fill in the blanks)

xo

Monday, December 10, 2012

to be honest

I'm a bit of a mess right now, as evidenced by my extreme drowsiness, weepiness and other things. It's mostly circumstantial, and a good opportunity for SOMETHING, I am sure. (I promise). xo

Who is bipolar bear frog prince?





I feel like I have been on a great big adventure for the past two years, ever since I lost my job, began seasonal work, festivals and car living, and met this character (among others). I think I am collecting chapters for a story. xo

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Oh the shame!

Of being a slap happy drunk. There is exactly one person who gets it :)

the little things

Blue suede shoes and polka dot pants. Today I was duped by anthropologies mirrors and found my new favorite amazing boots. xo

Monday, November 26, 2012

here in seattle

I am working on my list, things to do before my adventure to India. And my mind is already speculating on what comes after that.....

xo

I like to think

That I would be happy living in a tipi in the woods. And then I remember dampness, and the darkness of a northwest winter. 

It gets cold tomorrow.

xo

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Today



I felt a split second of sheer elation. First place for photos of my friends!
xo

Sitting

Here in the Ukiah Safeway, I can smell the old man at the next table. He stares vacantly, eggnog before him. xo 

Monday, September 17, 2012

sometimes


Someone snaps a picture of me when I am not looking. It is a rare treat :) This year at burning man I cried daily, if not more. I think I need the release to feel good. xo

Friday, September 14, 2012

dreamed

I clung to a precipice, supported by a friend. This after facing vertical asphalt hills in my car. HMM


Saturday, September 8, 2012

burning man was....

And now I am home, until I fly away again south. It's so hard to let the magic go. xo

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Confession

Sometimes I still buy uncomfy clothing because of how it looks. I'm getting over that, slowly and surely. xo

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

this phase

Is marked by Dawson's Creek, super Mario world and excitement for burning man.  I am SO very excited to come home. xo

Saturday, August 18, 2012

notes

Shamandome
Steam bath
Monkey chanting
EFT
Human mandala?

(just some ideas)
xo

Thursday, August 16, 2012

did I mention

That I turned 30? 

I wonder what good habits I can bring into the new decade.

xo

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

festival five

Scott called it his restival, I read Jung and painted. These little crawlies were everywhere! xo

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

boated




Some pics from a canoe adventure with my latest toy camera. Smitten! xo

Thursday, July 12, 2012

And so it begins

In this next phase, my weekends begin Thursday nights with a long drive towards the festive unknown. I am getting excited :) xo

Monday, July 9, 2012

Friday, June 22, 2012

played





With my new ultra slim and wide, and my 7 year old friend. xo

Monday, June 18, 2012

a quiz I took


It is time for you to discover your magical path.
Money may feel elusive and somewhat magical to you. Like a fairytale you wonder if it is real and possible for you to experience true wealth.
There is a deep inner wisdom within you that is starting to show buds, but you often second guess yourself wondering if it is magical thinking. When you do this, the buds aren't able to blossom.
There is great wisdom in magical thinking and fairytales. It is time for you to cultivate your unique magical path and recognize the wisdom within it.
Your greatest challenge: Â You get caught up in limiting mind loops that stunt the magic from growing into reality. Your greatest challenge is to recognize your limiting patterns and find the wisdom within them so you can release their spell on you.
Your greatest opportunity for creating wealth: Wealth comes from walking your magical path. Your greatest opportunity is to cultivate your belief in your magical path and release the fears and doubts so you can experience your own fairytale.
Inspired action: Notice where your limiting beliefs are holding you back and write a new fairytale that has all the magic you desire.
(from soul artist laura hollick)

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Today

I walked all around with Greeni, ran into an past classmate (with a darkroom!) and tasted chocolate from the oldest chocolatier in Sicily. I also sweated buckets in hot yoga and spent time with my dad. xo

Monday, June 11, 2012

Sunday, June 3, 2012

I made a calendar

Dear June,

May you be full of joy.

Love, Gianna

Example

Last full moon I made a mandala. And then I moved into my new room, where said mandala uncannily matched the decor.....see?? These are the little things, that often blow my mind. xo